If At First You Don't Succeed... Throw Everything in the Bin and Try Again
Posted by Veronica Dearsley on
There are things in this life that I am good at. And there are things in this life that I am completely rubbish at. Unfortunately, sometimes those things interfere with each other.
After spending many years trying to be a something-preneur, as was the fashion, last year, it all got too much. I just about managed to drag myself through the pandemic (with a little help from my friends + colleagues) and made some decisions that helped me just about stay afloat but also meant that I felt extremely precarious, both business wise and mentally. So when things looked like they were going to get even more difficult, with all doom and gloom in the economy and the general internet small business zone in which I exist, I cut and run.
Well… that’s a bit of an exaggeration. But I did throw a lot of things in the bin. I did something I have wanted to do for many years - got a job. There are a lot of emotions tied up in that, both good and bad, so I’ll save them for another day.
This has done a few things for me:
- Made me realise that I’m actually capable of doing those hard things I always bang on about how we can all do (sometimes you need a reminder, even when you’ve written a book about it)
- Taken off a bit of the financial pressure of running a business and made me realise that’s the number one hard thing that tipped me over the edge
- Helped me rediscover the joy I found in being “Veronica Dearly” and work out what I want to try and fish out of the bin
The number one thing I miss is running a subscription club for lots of wonderful people. So that’s the top of my list while I rummage around and make plans.
I regret closing it down, of course, but hopefully you can understand why I did, and why it was actually the right thing to do at the time. Sometimes actual real life is like that, I think.
Anyway, I thought this would be a good place to tell you I will be bringing it back, in slightly different format, and if you miss your monthly deliveries, of course, I’d love to have you back. I want it to be a bit more personal, so I plan on keeping it a bit smaller, but I’ll go into all that in good time.
Also I totally understand if you have moved on, found a new stationery love, or simply don’t want a subscription in your life. I just want you all to know that you were part of something for me that was really magical and I will be eternally grateful for that.